My Everything

Alternate Pairing: Um...er, *looks nervously at her Fellow JC/Lance obsessors* Just read, you will know who the alternate ending paring will be. *runs out of the room before the lynch mob can catch her*

Disclaimer: *sighs* How many time do I have to tell y'all, If I owned them I WOULD BE WITH THEM!!!!!!! They Would be mine!!!! But, since I don't, I can't! Now if you intend to sue me, please wait until I'm about 70 years old and I finally win the damn lottery, that way I'm sure I'll die the next day.

The first thing he became aware of was how warm he was. He also became aware of the strong, possessive arms that were wrapped around him, and the firm body he was pressed against.

'Must be Justin. He's the only other person, next to Josh, that holds me like this,' the sweet green-eyed blond thought as he tried once again to free himself from his friends warm, inviting arms.

"Mmm... no baby, don't wanna get up. Want to stay right here forever," the other young man mumbled in his sleep, before pulling the stunned, green-eyed man closer to his body, his arms wrapping possessively around the younger man.

Tears stung his pale-green eyes as soon as he saw the face of his lover, of the young man that he loved more than anything else in his world. The same man that had ripped his heart out a week ago by telling him that he had never loved him, that their life together, over the past two years had been nothing but a lie.

Hearing the softly whispered call of his name, the young man who continued to hold onto the young blond possesively, began to awaken. His silver-blue eyes fluttered open slightly to look into the pale-green eyes of his young lover, before smiling at the younger man and closing his eyes again.

"Wh-what are you doing here?" questioned the gentle blond as he stared at the young man laying on their bed. His deep voice was thick with emotion as he tried as hard as he could to not cry.

Seeing the hurt in his young lover's beautiful, pale eyes, the pain and doubt that he had put there, JC rose from the bed and made his way over to the young blond in two quick strides. His heart ached as he answered his little lover.

"You missed me? You missed *me!* You bastard!" shouted the normally quiet, gentle blond just before he pulled his balled up fist back as far as it would go and then let it fly, connecting with its intended target with a nice, resounding crack.

The sound of flesh connecting with flesh followed by a crack and then a soft thud could be heard by the three young men on the otherside of the door as they pressed their ears to it to hear what was going on. They had a feeling this would happen.

Justin couldn't help the smirk that crossed his face. Nor could Joey andChris help the huge grins that had spread across their faces. They knew the pain that their little bass-man had been through. They had watched the young man crumble before their eyes. They had sat and held the adorable little blond as his world fell apart. They had cried along with him when he cried out for the love of the man that he had thought he had.

And they knew what Lance's temper was like when pushed to far. A temper that, though rarely ever brought to the surface, exploded as his emotions took control of him.

JC was sprawled out on the floor, his left hand covering his left eye as he looked up at his young lover, the young man who had every right in the world to be as pissed off as he was at the moment.

The handsome brunet was more than a little surprised by Lance's actions, but he wasn't entirely shocked. He had expected several different reactions, although, he hadn't expected his gentle lover to take a punch at him. That had been a shock.

"You selfish bastard! How dare you come in here, hold me in your arms and just think that when I woke everything was going to be okay!" Lance exclaimed as his body shook with surpressed sobs and anger. His hypnotizing pale-green orbs locked onto the man who was still lying on the floor blinking up at him with his good eye.

"Don't...." the younger man warned as he moved away from JC, from the man he loved with everything he had. "Don't call me that. Don't say things like that if you don't really mean them," the younger man stated. His voice was filled with both anger and sadness.

"I do mean them baby," the handsome brunet anounced, his love for the young blond showing brightly in his steele-blue eyes. "I'm *so* sorry I hurt you,that I said all those hurtful things to you. They weren't true, I've always loved you. I always will," JC tried to reassure as he moved towards the younger man. He was trying not to let the pain in his eye distract him from his mission.

Stepping back as JC moved towards him, Lance wasn't sure if he should believe his wayward lover. JC's words from a week ago still haunted him, still tormented him. He wanted so much to believe his boyfriend, the man that he loved more than anything.

"You said our love was a lie, Josh. How can you expect me to believe you after saying that? Why would you say such a thing if you hadn't of believed it when you said it?" the smaller man quietly asked, his voice full of pain as he looked at the man he had thought he would be spending forever with.

JC's heart wrenched painfully as he heard the pain that filled his love's beautiful, deep voice. He couldn't bare thethought that he had caused his gentle lover so much pain and anguish. It tore at his heart when he saw the glistening tears as they fell silently from his baby's eyes.

"You never loved me, did you Josh?" the green-eyed young blond questioned, his eyes still spilling over with tears as he looked at the man who had broken his heart, the same man that he would forever love.

"Because it's true, baby. It's true! I love you Lance. I have always loved you. I don't know why I said what I said that day. I don't know why I felt I had to hurt you so badly by saying all those horrible things. They weren't true. Our love was never a lie," JC tried to convince. His eyes showed the love that he had for his broken little blond.

"If they weren't true Josh, you never would have said them." the younger man stated quietly. So quietly that JC almost didn't hear him. "You never would have said them." Then more tears began to fall.

JC had to convince his Lance of his love. He couldn't lose the young man that meant everything to him. He had done a lot of thinking during the week he had been away from his young lover. And in that week he had realized one very important thing.

"No Lance, what I had said was wrong. I said those things out of anger and fear. They weren't true. You have to believe me baby, they weren't true," the handsome brunet tried to convince.He was becoming afraid that Lance wasn't going to take him back, that the young man had been to badly hurt to want to take him back. "When I saw that picture and the article, I just freaked. I didn't even realize what I had said or done until after I hadleft Orlando. It was a mistake baby. I love you. Only you. You are my everything," JC stated with conviction as he moved towards his gentle lover. His voice held a

"I don't know whether or not to believe anything you say to me anymore, Josh," the adorable blond stated quietly, his voice full of sadness and tears. "You blamed me for that article and the picture, then you told me that everything I thought about your love for me was a lie," Lance continued, stepping back some more, as JC moved towards him again.

"Lance..." the handsome brunet started, inching his way closer and closer to the man that was everything to him, the man he loved more than anything else in his world.

"Didn't you even stop to think that maybe, just maybe I had just as much to lose from that article and that picture getting out?" Lance stated angrily through his tears. His body shook again as he tried to hold in all the pain he'd been in for the last week. "Because I did, Josh. I had just as much to lose as you did. Except I lost so much more, because I lost you," the younger man stated quietly, his voice sounding small and hurt.

"I did Lance. I did stop and think about it, about you. But I was so angry and upset about that article that it just didn't hit me until after I had left town. Then, once I did realize what I had done, what I had said to you... I...I just lost it. I sat outside my parent's house in my car and just cried. I cried because of the things I said to you, because of the way I made *you* feel Lance," the older man stated as he continued to edge his way closer to the young blond. His eyes still held both the love and the fear that he had since the day he had left. "Once I had gotten a hold of myself, I went and talked to mom and dad. I told them everything, Lance," JC stated quietly, as he looked into the shocked greens of his lovers eyes. "I told them that you and I were together, that we were a couple, that you complete

me, that without you I would have self-distructed a long time ago. It was one of the hardest things I've ever done in my life Lance, but I did it. I told them how much in love with you I was. How much you mean to me. I told them that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. And I do, baby, I do. You are the most important thing in my life, Lance. You always will be," the handsome brunet stated as he now stood just a few feet away from Lance,who had run out of room to move.

With his back against the wall, Lance took a good, long look at his lover. At the man that he wanted to spend forever with. He noticed the dark circles under JC's eyes. He looked exhausted and scared to death.

Lance then dropped his eyes from JC's and looked out the window. His mind was still haunted by the angry words that his boyfriend had spat out at him. Words that had shattered his heart and pierced his soul.

"What did your parents say, Josh? How did they take the news that their son was in love with another man? A man that they know, that they allowed in their house, that they held conversations with. How did they react to knowing that you had a relationship with me that went far beyond anything 'brotherly'?" Lance wanted to know. His eyes still held the pain and hurt that he had been carrying around with him for the last week. A hurt that might never go away.

"They already knew, Lance. They had known way before that article and picture got out," JC stated, his voice holding a hint of astonishment and a lot of fear. "Yeah it shocked the hell out of them to actually hear me admit my love for you baby, but it didn't freak them out. They...they accepted it," he continued, his eyes welling up with tears. His heart ached at the sudden pain that flashed in Lance's eyes. Pain that he had caused the younger man. "They told me that, out of all the young men in this world I could have fallen in love with, they were glad I picked you, Lance," he said as he reached across to touch his lover's face again, only to have his hand fall to his side when Lance turned his head away from the touch. "Baby?" came the tearful plea.

"I'm glad they accepted you Josh, I'm really happy for you. I wish, I wish it could have been that easy for me," the younger man painfully stated, as tears coursed down his cheeks, falling one by one and landing on JC's shoes.

Blinking in confusion before it dawned on him exactly what Lance had meant by the statement, JC tried once again to touch Lance, only to be met with even more anger.

"Lance, baby...what do you mean by you wish it had been that easy for you?" JC asked, as he reached out again to touch his lover, to offer comfort, only to take a step back at the warning tone he heard in Lance's deep, beautiful voice.

"Don't touch me!" Lance growled before trying to take another step back. "You want to know what I meant by that statement, JC?" the hurt, angry young blond spat out. "In your moment of pure selfishnesss, when you were yelling at me and blaming *me* for that article ruining everything for *you*, did you forget that *I* had parents too Josh!? Did you?" the adorable, but extremely miserable little blond questioned, as he pressed himself futher into the wall. Tears streamed down his face as he looked into the eyes of the man that he still loved, but was too confused and hurt to know what to do about it.

JC's eyes filled with hurt at the near violent reactionLance had to his touch. It was then that he finally realized just how much he had hurt his young lover. He knew now, that he would do whatever he had to to make things right between him and Lance. Then he heard what Lance had said about his parents.

"Lance? They know? Y...your parents know about us?" the older man stated more than asked, as his brain registered the sudden look of shame and sadness that seemed to take over his young love's normally pale-green eyes.

"Yeah Josh, they know. They saw that article too. Hell it was in the same paper that my dad reads everyday. My mom called me up and asked me if what they had read was true," the sweet young man started as his body began to shake again, his mind filling with the turmoil that he felt. "I couldn'tlie to her Josh, I couldn't stand there and deny my feelings for you to her and my father. So I told them the truth. I told them that I was in love with you. That you and I had been together for over two years, and that I had planned on spending the rest of my life with you. That is until you broke my heart by telling me that you never loved me," Lance added as he watched the pain that flickered in JC's silver-blue eyes.

"Baby, what did they say? H...how did they take it?" the gentle brunet asked, as he moved a little closer to the the weary young blond. His heart ached even more as he watched more tears escape his lover's beautiful green eyes.

"Well Josh, they sure as hell didn't take it as well as your parents did. You could say that as of last week, I'm no longer their son, and that they never wanted to hear from me again," Lance stated angrily, bitterness laced throughout his voice.

"What for? It wasn't your parents that you lost. It wasn't your life that was ripped from you. It was mine." Lance stated, his voice coated with pain as the heart wrenching sobs began to take over.

"I needed you Josh! I needed you more than ever, and you weren't there. I lost my parents because of my love for you, a love that you claimed was nothing but a lie!" the heartbroken little blond exclaimed, as he closed his eyes in an atempt to stop the tears, only to give up when they continued to fall regaurdless.

"You what? Wish you could take it all back? Find a way to make it all better? Well it's too late for that Josh! There's nothing you can do or say that will give me my parents back," Lance stated, his voice raw with emotion. "But let me tell you something Josh, I NEVER once blamed you for losing them. Not once! Because you see, my love for you is real Josh. I have loved you from the first day I saw you. And I will love you 'til the day I die. My love for you was never a lie. It was real, it still is. You are my everything Josh, my everything," the younger man finished, his voice going quiet as his body slumped against the wall and he let all the emotions he was feeling take him over.

Doing the only thing he could think of to convince Lance of his love for him, to show him how much he means to him, JC reached over with both of his hand and cupped the smaller man's face in them, startling Lance as his lips were covered by JC's in a kiss that was both gentle and passionate. A kiss that showed the younger man how much JC loved him.

For several seconds Lance stood there, frozen in place. His gorgeous green eyes went wide as he felt all the love and passion that JC poured into that kiss. He could not only feel his own tears streaming down his face, but the tears of his lover as well.

But Lance was still too hurt and angry to let JC's desperate act get to him. So he pulled away from those soft, wonderful lips and gently pushed JC away, stunning the older man.

JC just stood there in shocked silence. His eyes filled with pain and hurt as he began to painic. 'Oh god, I've ruined everything. He doesn't want me. I've hurt him too badly for him to want me back. I...I've lost him! I don't want to lose him! I love him!' his mind screamed as he watched Lance walk over to the window and stare out into the garden.

Outside in the hall, Joey, Justin and Chris had continued to listen in on the conversation, believing that they had every right to know what was going on, since they had spent the last week trying to cheer their little bass-man up, giving him the comfort that he needed because JC wasn't there to give it to him.

"Yeah kiddo, Joey's right. I know it comes as a total shock, I mean, Joey actually being right about something, but..." the adorable jokester playfully stated as he watched the grin that slid across Justin's face and the mock pout that formed on Joey's.

"I know that he loves Jace, guys. I just want to make sure he's going to be happy. That's all I've ever wanted for Lance. But I'm not gonna stand here and lie to you. If I see even the slightest chance that JC is going to screw up again I'm gonna be there, ready and willing to take JC's place," Justin told them truthfully, knowing that he didn't have a chance with his green-eyed band mate.

All the emotions that JC was feeling at the moment were beginning to boil over. He loved Lance, he knew that. He loved the younger man so much that it hurt. Seeing the pain, the conflict that Lance was in, hurt him even more.He had waited a whole week to kiss Lance. To touch his soft lips with his own and savor the taste that was only his lover's.

Now, JC wasn't sure where he stood with Lance. The younger man kept pulling away from him. From every atempt to prove his love for him. The older man was brought out of his thoughts by the soft, tearfilled sound of his love's voice. The pain and raw emotion in that beautiful, deep voice sent waves of pain and regret coursing through his own body.

"Why are you here, Josh? Why, if you love me like you say, did it take you a week to come back to me? What is it that you really want from me? Am I just a warm body to you? Or am I, like you say, more than that?" the quiet young blond asked, his heart hammering fiercely in his chest as he waited for JC's answer. What he got instead shocked the shit out of him.

Lance looked down at hislover, his own eyes filling up with tears again as he listened to the gut wrenching sobs that shook the older man. It took all of his willpower to keep from reacting to JC's pain. He wouldn't give in, he kept telling himself that he had to be strong. Then JC began to speak.

"I'm here, Lance because for the past week I've been miserable. My life doesn't mean shit with out you in it," JC confessed. "I do love you, baby. You have to believe me. I love you more than I've ever loved anything else in this world. More than my career, my brothers and sister, my friends, my parents... you are the breath of life in me, Lance. My soul isn't complete without you. You are the only love I've ever known, baby," he continued as he tightened his hold on his lover's waist,afraid that if he let go, he would lose the man that he loved forever. "The reason it took me so long to find my way back to you Lance, was becuase I was afraid," the older man admitted,

feeling his young lover tense up and try to pull away, only to be held firmly at the waist by JC's strong but gentle arms. "Not like that baby, not about what the paper said, I had forgotten about that the moment I realized how much I had hurt you by walking out on you. I was afraid to come back right away because, because I wasn't sure if you would want me back after what I had done. I was afraid that I had fucked up so badly that you never wanted to see me again," the blue-eyed brunet stated, tears still falling from his eyes as he held onto his lover's waist.

"I love you baby, you're more than a warm body to me. You're more than just someone to pass the time with, someone to offer companionship. Damn it Lance! You are EVERYTHING to me. You are the first thing I think about when I wake up in the morning and the last thing I think about before I fall asleep at night," JC confessed, his arms tightening even more. "God baby, I love you. Do you hear me? I. Love. You!" the older man stated, punctuating the last three words, hoping to get his point across.

JC nearly cried out when he felt Lance's soft, gentle fingers start to run through his newly shortened, silky hair. When he looked up at the smaller man, tears still streaming relentlessly down his face, JC saw that Lance was gazing down at him, his eyes still filled with pain, but now held more love than anything.

"I love you, Josh. I couldn't stop loving you if my life depended on it. You are my everything. Every night you were gone, I prayed that you will always be my everything. No one in my life means more to me than you do. No one. I found the love of my life in you," the younger manstated as he ran his fingers through his lover's hair, tears trailing down his cheeks and landing on JC's nose.

"What does this mean, Lance? Does this mean you forgive me, that we will have a future together? 'Cause baby, I mean it. I love you. I didn't realize how much or how deep my love for you was until I walked out on you. 'Til I was forced to realize how worthless my life is without you by my side. Baby, I would give you everything. I would do anything to have you back in my life. I know I don't deserve you, I know I don't deserve a second chance. A chance to make things right. But baby, thats all I'm asking for, is a chance to prove my love for you, to you," JC questioned as he reassured the younger man of his love for him.

Getting to his feet so that he could look directly into the eyes of his beloved, JC prayed that Lance would give him that chance to proveto him how much he loved him, how strong his love for him was. To make right the mistake he had made when he left the younger man. To help him get over losing the two people who had meant just as much to him as he did, and hopefully to help him get thosepeople back into his life.

chance?" the older man asked quietly as he reached across and caressed the soft, delicate skin of his lover's face. His heart leapt for joy when Lance didn't pull away.

Closing his eyes to the sensation of JC's touch, Lance couldn't surpress the shiver that ran through his body. He had been longing for his beloved's touch since he left. He had prayed every night thatit had all been just some horrible nightmare, a dream world that he was trapped in and his lover couldn't get into.

"I'm afraid that, that you...that..." the younger man started, tripping over his words as JC's hand continued to run lovingly over his face, the bridge of his nose...his lips.

"You're afraid I'm going to hurt you again, aren't you?" JC asked as he looked into the smaller man's eyes and seeing that he had hit the nail right on the head. His heart constricted painfully as he saw the shame that filled those eyes.

Lance had just nodded and then tried to look away, but JC's hand resting under his chin stopped him from turning way, forcing him to look into his lover's silver-blue eyes. What he saw, just about broke his heart, for JC's eyes held the shame that he felt.

"I wont hurt you again, Lance. I love you and I will do everything I can to prove that love to you. There are no words to express my feeling for you. You'll just have to give me the chance to show you how much I do love you," JC stated softly as he cupped the smaller man's face into his long elegant hands, caressing Lance's skin with his thumbs as he leaned forward, pressing his lips gently against the others.

His heart doing flip-flops as his lover closed his eyes again to the new sensation. He smiled against his beloved's lips as Lance rested his hands on his hips to steady himself. Then JC furthered the kiss, his tongue flicking out playfully before letting it trail lightly over the soft, pink, puffy skin before asking for entrance. He was afraid that Lance wouldn't comply. He sighed inwardly in relief as the younger man hesitantly allowed JC's tongue to enter his mouth.

Lance nearly tensed up when he felt the older man's hand at the back of his neck, gently playing with the soft tuffs of short hair at the back before gently tugging his head forward to deepen the kiss they shared. He could feel the taller mans tongue tickling the roof of hs mouth, sending chills throughout his body, before he felt his lover's tongue glide slowly over his teeth.

Pulling the younger man closer to his body, JC then wrapped his other arm around Lance's waist, not wanting to lose the contact for a second. He then caressed the small of the younger mans back while his other hand gently ran throughhis love's soft, carefree hair, reveling in the feel of the thick, velvet strands. He had missed this.

Feeling himself pulled further into his lover's arms, Lance couldn't help wrapping his own arms around JC's back, gently trailing his fingers lightly over the soft fabric of the older mans shirt, sending chills of pleasure to race through his beloved's body. Before he knew it, JC's was tugging gently on his lower lip with his teeth and then playfully licking it before plunging back inside for another taste. This time the kiss was full of passion, an urgent need to taste and feel, to make sure that this wasn't all a dream, that it was real.

When they both finally pulled away, Lance just stared at JC for a minute as his heart rate started to slow down. Hislips were red and puffy. His hair was messed up, his clothes were slightly wrinkled. His cheeks were flushed. To JC, it was the most incredible sight he has ever seen.

The older man smiled when Lance leaned his forhead against his chest, before turning it to the side and letting his ear rest over JC's heart. JC wrapped his arms protectively around his beloved's smaller frame, before closing his eyes and just loving the way Lance felt in his arms. He never wanted to let go and he never would.

Sighing, Lance pulled away, albeit relunctantly. There was something he had to know, something that could make or break his relationship with JC. Something he was afraid to ask.

"What happens if theirs another article, Josh? Another picture? I can't hide how I feel about you. I love you and people are going to see this. Will you blame me again for the next one? Will you blame me for you losing your career? Your friends? Are you sure you want this, Josh, knowing what kind of risks are involved?" the younger man questioned as his eyes filled with the pain that they had held earlier.

Seeing the pain in the beautiful green orbs of his love again, JC pulled the younger man towards him again. His heart thudded against his chest again as he reassured the gentle blond for the last time.

"Lance... it's not going to matter in a few days who knows about us. I've already told Johnny that I'm releasing a press statement stating that I'm gay, and that you and I have been together for the last two years. I can't hide how I feel about you either, baby. You are everything to me, and I don't care who knows it," the older man stated as he lifted Lance's chin up and placed a soft, tender kiss on his lips. A kiss that held nothing but promises.

Lance was shocked, he barely registered the kiss, or the fact that JC was now asking him if he was all right. He finally snapped out of it when his brain processed what JC had just finished telling him.

"Josh... Why? You...you don't have to do that just to prove your love for me. I believe you!" the younger man stated in a panic. His eyes went wide as he broke away from JC and hurried over to the phone, hoping to be able to stop Johnnybefore he could get the press conference together.

"I'm calling Johnny. Maybe there's still time for him to call off the press confer..." Lance started before JC gently took the phone out of his hands and then pulled the younger man into his arms again.

"Baby, I don't want to call it off. I'm doing this for me just as much for you," JC stated thoughtfully as he ran his hand gently through Lance's soft, wheaten colored hair. "I mean, it's gonna be really hard for us to get married if we have to hide it from people, and since both our parents alreadyknow, whats the point in keeping it quiet? For the sake of our fans? Our friends?" the taller man finished. He smiled when he heard his lover's next words.

"Yes baby, I want to marry you," JC confirmed as he reached into the pocket of his shirt and pulled out a ring box. He smiled when he heard the gasp that escaped his beloved's lips, then he saw the tears that filled Lance's eyes when the younger man shakily took the box into his hands.

"Oh God," came the breathless reply as Lance opened the box, his heart nearly leaping out of chest as he finally realized that JC had meant every word he had said to him that morning. He pulled the ring out of the box and clutched it in has hand. He never wanted to let it go, for it became a symbol of the love that JC had for him, a love that he was told was a lie.

Wiping the relentless tears away before giving up on it all together, Lance looked into the eyes of the man he loved. Bringing his hand up to caress JC's face, Lance leaned up and kissed the older man tenderly on the lips, his eyes shining brightly with tears.

The kiss had told JC all he needed to know, as he wrapped his arms around his gentle lover, pulling him closer and deepening the kiss. A kiss that meant their futures were set.

Outside the room, peering through the small crack in the door, a young curly haired man smiled. He knew now that his beloved would be happy. And for that, he was happy too.

"C'mon Curly, let's leave the two love birds alone," Joey stated as he tugged gently on Justin's arm, before slinging it comfortably over the younger man's shoulders.

"Ya know Justin? I hear that Ashley from O-town is available. I also hear that he has a major ass crush on you too," the adorable jokester stated as they trailed further down the hall, their voices getting softer the futher away the moved.

Now....I'm gonna go pull all my hair out before hunting JC and Chris down and kickin their asses for making y'all wait for part 17 of "The Price of Fame" and The Trilogy.